Betrayal

I feel betrayed today. I trust this person with all my heart, and this person betrayed me, by telling lies. Lies, lies, lies. How do you feel if someone lie to you and you trust him/her whole heartedly? I felt as though the whole world in crashing down on me. 11 th July 2006 repeated. *sigh
I hope whoever you are, stop pretending and if you dont have anything to say, just stuff it. Dont be nice in front of me, and stab me in the back. It hurts. It really hurts mainly because you were once close to me, and I have helped you in any way I can. I dont want anything in return, but stop bullshitting. Dont say anything if it's not important ok?
Then again, this world is full of people like you, aint it? PRETENDERS

I HATE YOU Pt 2

How could you do this to me? You are one pathological LIAR and and I fell for it. You are soooo sleek, do you know that? One look at you and people fall for your charm and and your words...OMG your words...! Sure fooled me!
I think you're too stupid to be living in this world. I dont know why God has created you. I am very sure He has nothing else to do
I hope you'll be happy in your pathetic and superficial life. Damn you!

Barclays Singapore Open 2008

Yep, me and a friend went to Singapore recently for the Singapore Open. It offered the biggest purse in Asia (USD 5 million) Fuuuh! My goal was to meet Ernie Els and Phil Michelson, but as a bonus point, I had a wonderful time there! Met more than Ernie and Phil; took pictures with Ian Poulter, Thomas Byron, Marcus Brier and get this, managed to take picture of Phil's butt. (I shouldnt've typed that...! Im not a maniac, you know..!)
Second goal, was to get a nice golfbag. I kindda found it, but didnt buy it. Well, I'll wait until the currency goes down or when they offer a really really good deal. To shop in Singapore is not a good idea now, since it the exchange rate is SGD 1 = RM 2.41. Sheesh! But I bought myself 2 pairs of nice Adidas trousers. I dont think they have this in Malaysia. Those pairs are worth-buying.
I had lots of wild mushrooms during the Asian Tour's Players Party that night. It left me big gas..big time!
Came back after the 2nd day. Hotel mahal sangat lah!

Just A Quick One

Exercising my new found me- Dont do it in the morning (many grumpy people around)
First Victim - My own sister
How it began - Teh Tarik
What happened next - Only one huge CATFIGHT in my mind
My next victim - Mom (Im so sorry Mama)
And then...? - As I was playing with my cat, I heard a slight whimper behind me, thought it came from Momot, my cat. Turned around and there she was, huge and crying. It was like a scene from Mrs. Winterbourne.
After that - Both of us cried. We hugged each other tightly, said sorry and continue crying. All is well now
Moral of the Story
1) I say my mind
2) My sister is actually a forgiving person
3) My Mom is the sweetest lady on earth
4) PJ is the best thing that's ever happened to my sis
5) Momot will never ever cry like a girl

Raya Do With The Courters

What can I say? The Lodeh was super delish, the Dendeng talipon was outta this world, Rendang and Kuah Kacang as usual, superb! The cakes are sinfully fantastic, the company was tremendously hilarious, the hosts were gracefully accomodating. What a way to spend your Sunday afternoon! This is what I call Bertandang di Hari Raya.

And Colonel, I luuuurve your new trousers and shirt for the Graduation party

Happy Birthday Sis

El turns ..err..something today. Last night at 12 midnight, we, PJ and I sang Happy Birthday to her and she finally had a birthday cake, after so many years celebrating her birthday during fasting month tee hee! This year's birthday is special, I'd reckon, because it's her first birthday as a wife and a pregnant domestic goddess. Push come to shove, she had her wish, and her birthday cake.
What can I say about my one and only sister? When we were small, we looked very much alike, until I stopped growing and became a sun worshipper. Our mum would dress us exactly alike and people sometimes thought that we're twins. We had the same hairstyle, which is a china-doll style and all the same dresses, bare-backs style outfits and not forgetting jeans and t-shirts. It all stopped when we turned to teenagers. I still love under-the-sun sports whereas El ventured into self-beautification. She would try all sorts of beauty product, may that be natural or err..not-so-natural. She has this trial-and-error style, which she'd apply until she finds the best results. I find that very tedious and over-bearing, whereas she finds it heavenly and fulfilling.
Basically, we are different but similar in many ways. We had our ups and downs, longing for a brighter future, regretting the dim past and hold on to the present. And rest assured, I wont manja your kid ok? I'll pull its ears if you want me to.

Happy Birthday dear sista. Love ya!

My Journey...So Far

Life is a journey. To where? I have no idea, but I know that we eventually have a destination. A place where we'll be there for a long, long time.
My journey has been quite an adventurous one. People say your journey dictates your principle, your outlook in life.
As for me, I was brought up to think that I am my own master, I am my own destiny and I can do anything with it as long as I think it's the best for me. I learned to be independent. And I went to a boarding school in the tender age of 13. That changed me a bit. I started to be more careful in the way I talk, dress and behave. There are certain conformity that has to be followed when one lives in a community. As a result, my so-called freedom is somehow bounded by these rules. My creativity stunted. And I tend to be judgmental in looking at other people.
But that changed in Leeds, where I had my teaching assistant apprenticeship in the English Department in University of Leeds. I was housed for nearly one month with a couple, who happened to be hippies. See, in the application, I requested to be housed with vegans, so that it wont be much problem when my meal was concerned. Susan and Brian, both working as lecturers in the same varsity, indirectly taught me to be more compassionate and undivided when it comes to human relation. To them, everybody is equal regardless of race, colour, social status and most important thing of all, religion. They were the ones whom, in the beginning, moulded me into becoming who I am today. I thank my lucky stars for giving me the opportunity to know them and to learn from them as much as I could. If not, I'd reckon I'll be cooped up in a circle of uncertainty and judgmentality.
Another episode that made me who I am today was the 46th International Olympic Academy Session For Young Leaders in Ancient Olympia, Greece. I met people from all over the world, in a place where the Olympics first started. It was an honour for me to be chosen to represent the country for such duty. I was so humbled and extremely grateful to have the chance to meet them and share my experience with them. I finally realized that there is no way I'll ever meet them again: now I have friends from Aruba, Lithuania (who happened to be my roomate), Senegal, Columbia, Kazakhstan, Mali, countries I've never dreamt of going! It was the most precious gift the country has ever given me.
So far, I have been blessed by all these experiences to make me a whole and grounded person. Will I ever be that? I surely hope so.